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Grace in Small Things: 1/365
February 23, 2009, 12:54 pm
Filed under: Grace in Small Things

For three days, I fought off a stress migraine that finally erupted into pure pain my entire Sunday, i.e. my only day off, and I’m trying my damnedest to avoid reaching for the Excedrin bottle at the moment for the minor tension I feel within my skull yet again.

The idea of having twice the amount of work – another reporter is leaving the newspaper and because the company has ceased its hiring, my workload will increase immensely – yet earning fewer dollars due to these furloughs is causing me a lot of grief, anger, sadness and frustration, all of which are making me entirely rethink not only my place within this company, but my life here in North Carolina.

And after wrestling with these thoughts for approximately a week, I’m assuming the climax of a complete meltdown is near.

When the previously mentioned coworker commented that she and her husband acquired a new TV – 42-inch flatscreen … must be nice – over the weekend, I somewhat snapped back at her and quietly broke down at my desk knowing there is currently zero possibility I’d be able to even afford a 13-inch black and white tube at the moment, let alone anything nicer. And with that reaction, I figured it was about damn time to do something about my overly pessimistic attitude since late last week.

I can’t sit here and pretend the world is fine when I find the situation rather unfair. More work, less money. Somehow I don’t recall that being what I was taught as a child, and yet that’s the circumstances I find unfolding. And as a typically optimistic, happy-go-lucky girl, this “woe is me” outlook simply does not fit. Thus, it’s time for me to jump on the bandwagon of Grace in Small Things – as I’ve seen at Stylish Handwriting and This? Is Not the Life I Ordered! – and attempt to overcome all this garbage stewing within my career before it overwhelms my personal life as well.

So here’s your first dose of my “Grace in Small Things”:

1. Somehow I’m still fortunate to have a full-time job with paid vacation and benefits.
2. A boyfriend who will take care of me when the stress has transformed into a three-day migraine.
3. Ripe bananas on the kitchen countertop.
4. Living in a region where there is no snow 97% of the year.
5. A more-than-understanding editor who realizes how important my second job truly is.

Unlike others, I may not maintain this on a daily basis, but I truly hope to complete all 365 instead of making this another one of my brilliant ideas to challenge myself that I forego within weeks. We’ll see what happens.

Note: E.P. posted a link about the Most and Least Stressful Jobs in America Today, and although my career isn’t quite as stressful as hers – journalists are 7th on the list while photojournalists rank 3rd – it’s still worth noting that my obvious stress isn’t entirely unjust or unfounded. That is all.

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The best choice I ever made was showing up for every journalism class an hour late.

There’s something to be said for blatant disregard.

I suppose there is. Though if I did this, I’d still be $50,000 in debt and without a college education. Grass = browner.

Comment by rs27

All I can give you at the moment is this personalized smiley! 🙂

Well thanks anyway! I appreciate the effort.

Comment by omegaradium

Breaking down at work sucks. I’ve done it a few times and every time I get so mad at myself for it because that just isn’t me.

Continued best wishes being sent your way from me & Coco!

I just want to avoid breaking down at work because this furlough thing isn’t affecting just me, it’s all of us, and I’d hate to bring everyone else in the newsroom down, too. Thanks for the wishes though!

Comment by Cee

I break down when I;m swamped with assignments too. That’s why these graces of small things really come in handy.

I’m hoping they do!

Comment by andhari

It is super hard, though, to stay positive sometimes, isn’t it? Especially when you have a headache – I know that feeling! Great idea though – it’s good to remind ourselves of all the good things in our life even with everything seems to be going wrong!

So hard to stay positive! I’m hoping that remembering what I have will help me focus less on what I don’t….money.

Comment by jill

interestingly enough, most of the least stressful jobs deal with either no people (astronomer) or dead people (historian).

Good point, ha.

Comment by stealthnerd

I have felt exactly this and I will agree-it’s not fun. Hang in there…I think your “Grace in Small Things” is a great idea.

Thanks. I hope it helps me see the little moments, the happy things, instead of focusing so much on the bad.

Comment by hautepocket

Yay! I’m happy that you are joining in on the Grace in Small Things. (I know I’m totally late on this.) And isn’t it ridiculous that our jobs are so freaking stressful? I think so.

I do, too. I think it’s even more ridiculous our jobs have forced us into needing GiST.

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